her story

SELF was created during one of the toughest times of my life. Every day was a constant battle with myself, my mental, and the world around me. It was as if I was in a cycle of taking loss after loss after loss. 2020 was one of the worse years of pain I dealt with in a long time. Everything was crashing down all at once, yet I still managed to pretend that I was fine. During this time of my life I was pregnant, having relationship problems, past traumas, new traumas, I mean the list goes on. I wasn't mentally stable enough to handle all of that at once and it was something I knew was negatively impacting my day to day life. I would dread doing things I once loved and was passionate about. No one understood the battles I was going through or even noticed; & I honestly didn't expect them to. I just wanted people to be there for me and love me through my mess. As ideal as that sounds some people aren't capable of handling those things or they simply have their own battles to deal with.  

After having my son in September 2021, I started experiencing Postpartum Depression (PPD). It was something I really tried my hardest to avoid but I was so lost mentally I just began spiraling and it just seemed like couldn't get myself back in a good place. The more time I got to spend with my son, watching him grow, smile, etc. made it easier for me to get on top of overcoming PPD. I had to realize that I now had to be at my best for me and for my son. I owed that to myself! 

It was and still is a challenging some days but for the most part, i've been in a good place and everyday I work towards being better than I was before. 

I had to let go of a lot of things, situations, and people that have hurt me or did me wrong throughout the year(s). 

I no longer allowed myself to live in my hurt but instead, EMBRACE it! 

Without those things and those experiences, I wouldn't be half of the woman I am today. 

We don't lose, we LEARN and we WIN!

So here's to becoming a better version of YOU for YOU because YOU deserve it!

-To my son,

You have been my motivation throughout this entire process and I am forever blessed to be your mommy. 

I found purpose in my life when I had you!

I love you forever, I like you for always